May 4, 2009
I was trying to describe my feelings to a friend. And I did an awfully bad job.
I couldn't help but thinking what has gone wrong with me? And what scared me the most is, I could not even remember immediately whether I was like this six years ago.
Maybe not. I cannot be.
There seems to be a part of me that has been dissipating away in the past six years of life. The ability of expressing myself gradually become disabled. Is it a normal process of growing up and gaining maturity? Or is it simply a side-effect of trying too hard to live my new identity?
A Friend once texted me saying that I need to open my mind more. I never forgot that text message which has been archived for a long time.
I want to. I always want to.
Maybe it is time to try, and to try harder to look for an open sky deep inside.
Note: Cape Cod Coast Guard Beach 2009.05.02